It's still 2007 which seems like it has been about five years rolled into one. I like lists and so I have complied two lists ok three of things I will miss about 2007 things that happened in 2007 and my New Year's resolutions those are mostly for me because I have some many now I keep forgetting them. Without further ado onto the list

 Things that happened/occured in 2007: I graduated, I worked in Mexico, I completed the pub crawl on Northgate and although it was one it was like all of my undergraduate years rolled into one night, I am glad to say I won't miss it so much, I moved to a new city and learned what it's like to start all over again, I got a 4.0!!!! in graduate school no less, I met two super cool new friends and remained close with the old ones and learned it takes a lot of work to maitain friendships, I cried, I laughed and I spent way to much money!

I will miss 2007 because: I will never be able to go back into that place where the real world didn't quite exist, now it has come to slap me in the face as most of my friends are getting jobs, moving, and having kids eekkk!

New Year's resolutions:    (1)Stop saying the f-word so much this will be a challenge as  I live with Bob and he says it ever two seconds. (2) Save money for some really awesome trip or an unexpected expense like replacing a window in the living room (3) Work out six days a week and eat healthier. . . . I have a buddy to help me so we shall see how this works (4) Learn to go to work happy and to make my job better and to be more assertive and creative (5) Run in a 5K

  Having said all that I hope everyone has a good holiday and an even better new year!

Soul searching

Holy mollie!

    It has been a year since I posted on here! It's funny how I always come back to Xanga to do some soul searching. After I've talked to all my friends and said God, "why am I such an idiot?" I still need to write something down just so I can get it off my chest, life is strange. I am sure that no one reads this anymore as I believe facebook has taken the place of Xanga for most of my friends, but facebook seems just a tad to impersonal to write my feelings out in.

    So. . . . on to soul searching. I think that there are times in my life that I have made very grave mistakes and somehow everything has ended up ok, call it luck, call it fate, angels watching over me or the hand of God. I certainly am not worthy to be so lucky yet time and time again I play with fire and everytime I do I come out regretting it but. . . . this time I think I can actually read it as a opportunity to change. I am in a new place, with for the most part new people, and opportunities and it is time to seize the proverbial bull by the horns and really figure out what I want in my life. So onward I charge a little jaded this time, and a little more cautious about my soul bearing but I know/hope that in the end it will be for the positive. So dear Xanga next time I report to you whenever it may be, hopefully it will be on happier and more positive terms.

 Something to ponder, although I use the word opportunity a lot I always misspell it! a sign, maybe so

P.S. I just ran spell check and I didn't misspell opportunity wrong at all, see I'm making changes already!

I am tired and don't know what to do with my life, I just want to lay down and look at the clouds and eat some fresh raspberries and not think of all the deadlines I need to met so that I can move on with my future. . . . . which is a scary thought.

     It seems the have been two reoccuring themes in my life lately: my love life and the difference between who I was when I started college and who I am now.

     My love life according to Ciba: So a little girl on my bus, Ciba inquires weekly if not daily, about my dating status of which there is nothing to report. It also seems as if this has been a reaccuring theme in several conversations with a wide variety of people, maybe it's because a lot of people I know are now getting married or have been dating so long they have no life outside of their relationship. Or the fact that I now realize I screwed up really big with someone I really did like and there isn't anything I can do to change it. . . . it's possible I just listened to many people and asked for to much advice and maybe their advice was right but I can't help but think that I squashed a good oppurtunity because I couldn't trust myself to decide what is right for me. So although Ciba's inquires remind me of my somewhat dismal love life, I have realized that maybe I need to just listen to what I want and if I get hurt, I know my friends will be there to do what they do best. . . . . offer advice.

How did I get here? Now that my college career or cross your fingers undergrad career is winding down, I feel like I'm in some kind of limbo-I'm ready for a new adventure but yet I don't want to leave. Leaving mostly  signifies worrying about the future and making decisons (which we all know I'm not good at) staying reminds me of all the fun times I've had and all the crazy things I probably should have never done, etc. At the same time I'm not the same person who did all those crazy things somethings changed and I can't quite put my finger on it and I feel out of sorts and I'm not sure many of my friends understand this. I feel old and out of the loop in certain aspects of college life that I used to think were fun but now just feel are a waste of time or are silly maybe it's just part of being more mature who knows. It is weird to reflect back on my last three years and see who much I've changed, I guess it's just part of the journey.

   Anywho time for bed I'm sure things will straighten themselves out or at least I'll quite thinking about "that guy" and marry a multimillonaire and never work, ha! that would fix both my problems love and where do I go from here.  

      dulce suenos,

          Rachel

So I it's going to be a good year I can feel it my new room mate is awesome. I'm not sure how it happened but I have never had a bad room mate, I must have just gotten really lucky. Anywho the new apartment is cool, minus the little roaches that pay us an occasional visit.

  Well thats about it just procrastinating even though I really shouldn't because my math exam is going to kill me probably but all I can say is that I finally took a math class and no math isn't that bad, but you sure as heck won't see me doing anymore. . . not even to balance my check book and thats all I have to say about that.

Chao chicos it has been mentioned that this is not the proper spelling of chao but my dear friends thats how the spelt when I was in Costa Rica so. . . . I don't know live it and love it

Rachel